My Mom called my elder brother responsible and called me as Irresponsible..May be because I had a Bad memory..I used to be careless handling money and used to forget things quite often.....As a 15 year old kid I used to wonder Why am I not responsible...I wasn't mature enough to understand or interpret that in an optimistic way......I made a decision within me that SAJIV IS IRRESPONSIBLE....I carried this burden of being IRRESPONSIBLE ALL MY LIFE till now WHEN I AM 28, and I AM NO MORE FEELING IRRESPONSIBLE.....Self-Realization is the Best realization....isn't it ??
Going back to my whole life cycle of being IRRESPONSIBLE....It started after school...I was so glad to FAIL in my Physics exam...as it was the FIRST TIME.....Till I was at School MY MOM MADE SURE I GET GOOD RESULTS.....But then the FIRST Failure was never a LAST FAILURE.....It was a repeated OCCURENCE Till I COMPLETED my DOUBLE MASTERS Degree....Thats 9 years of EDUCATION.....done in an IRRESPONSIBLE MANNER.....I MADE THE CHOICE OF BEING IRRESPONSIBLE unknowingly....being carried away by the materialistic world....Did not quite realize the Priorities of Life....and Misused the Freedom given by my PARENTS....while in a Relationship, the IRRESPONSIBLITY continued...FAMILY SAID GROW UP, GIRLFRIEND SAID GROW UP...I REPLIED U GUYS NEED TO GROW UP....Blamed the whole world...Until the time while I came abroad to study...and while I was about to complete my Degree... I FAILED IN MY THESIS THRICE....The last CHANCE GIVEN TO ME was the DISCOVERY OF MY RESPONSIBILITY.....IT TAUGHT ME what is meant by FEAR OF LOSS...I COULD SEE MY DAD's WHOLE LIFE EARNINGS Going into a Drain if I FAILED.....I COULD SEE MY LOSS OF 2 YEARS SPENT AT UNIVERSITY IF I FAILED IN MY THIRD ATTEMPT......I COULD SEE MY LOSS OF 2 YEARS OF WORK PERMIT ABROAD if I FAILED.....suddenly from a Comfortable Life....appeared a Difficult, ACTION PACKED LIFE.....GOTTA KNOW THE MEANING OF "THERE IS NO SHORTCUT TO SUCCESS"....and "HARDWORK IS THE ONLY SHORTCUT TO SUCCESS"....Till this time MY Philosophy was "TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY till u succeed.."...lolz...doesnt matter how many times you fail, just relax and chill and TRY.....i never thought TRY has to be filled with 100% Efforts and HARDWORK....HARDWORK = HARD+WORK...THE MORE YOU HATE THIS WORD...THE LATER YOU SUCCEED IN LIFE.....Another aspect of it is ...as the HOLY GITA says ...not to worry about the results and to focus on the efforts.....I did exactly opposite...always dreamt of the results...fantasized about them...but never even thought about the latter part EFFORTS....So RESPONSIBILITY has been a JOURNEY FOR ME and NOT A Natural Ability.....Took me ages to understand RESPONSIBILITY = RESPONSE + ABILITY..as simple as that....My first EXPERIENCE BEING RESPONSIBLE was when I SENT SOME MONEY to MY FAMILY...IT WAS Quite LATE at 28 but as they say its never TOO LATE.....My story about responsibility used to be The one who has problems in their lives is responsible...And I waited for my life to be in the worst situation for myself to become responsible....A incorrect decision made in past and a HUGE Price to pay for the time that follows that past....
Going back to my whole life cycle of being IRRESPONSIBLE....It started after school...I was so glad to FAIL in my Physics exam...as it was the FIRST TIME.....Till I was at School MY MOM MADE SURE I GET GOOD RESULTS.....But then the FIRST Failure was never a LAST FAILURE.....It was a repeated OCCURENCE Till I COMPLETED my DOUBLE MASTERS Degree....Thats 9 years of EDUCATION.....done in an IRRESPONSIBLE MANNER.....I MADE THE CHOICE OF BEING IRRESPONSIBLE unknowingly....being carried away by the materialistic world....Did not quite realize the Priorities of Life....and Misused the Freedom given by my PARENTS....while in a Relationship, the IRRESPONSIBLITY continued...FAMILY SAID GROW UP, GIRLFRIEND SAID GROW UP...I REPLIED U GUYS NEED TO GROW UP....Blamed the whole world...Until the time while I came abroad to study...and while I was about to complete my Degree... I FAILED IN MY THESIS THRICE....The last CHANCE GIVEN TO ME was the DISCOVERY OF MY RESPONSIBILITY.....IT TAUGHT ME what is meant by FEAR OF LOSS...I COULD SEE MY DAD's WHOLE LIFE EARNINGS Going into a Drain if I FAILED.....I COULD SEE MY LOSS OF 2 YEARS SPENT AT UNIVERSITY IF I FAILED IN MY THIRD ATTEMPT......I COULD SEE MY LOSS OF 2 YEARS OF WORK PERMIT ABROAD if I FAILED.....suddenly from a Comfortable Life....appeared a Difficult, ACTION PACKED LIFE.....GOTTA KNOW THE MEANING OF "THERE IS NO SHORTCUT TO SUCCESS"....and "HARDWORK IS THE ONLY SHORTCUT TO SUCCESS"....Till this time MY Philosophy was "TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY TRY till u succeed.."...lolz...doesnt matter how many times you fail, just relax and chill and TRY.....i never thought TRY has to be filled with 100% Efforts and HARDWORK....HARDWORK = HARD+WORK...THE MORE YOU HATE THIS WORD...THE LATER YOU SUCCEED IN LIFE.....Another aspect of it is ...as the HOLY GITA says ...not to worry about the results and to focus on the efforts.....I did exactly opposite...always dreamt of the results...fantasized about them...but never even thought about the latter part EFFORTS....So RESPONSIBILITY has been a JOURNEY FOR ME and NOT A Natural Ability.....Took me ages to understand RESPONSIBILITY = RESPONSE + ABILITY..as simple as that....My first EXPERIENCE BEING RESPONSIBLE was when I SENT SOME MONEY to MY FAMILY...IT WAS Quite LATE at 28 but as they say its never TOO LATE.....My story about responsibility used to be The one who has problems in their lives is responsible...And I waited for my life to be in the worst situation for myself to become responsible....A incorrect decision made in past and a HUGE Price to pay for the time that follows that past....
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